Sept 4th

So what’s been swirling around in my mind as usual is work.

I’m always monitoring my thoughts, feelings, and stress levels towards doing certain activities if that makes sense. I’ve realized that many thoughts have been devoted to fridging and they’re somewhat ugly thoughts. Just instant cortisol. And it’s such a small responsibility in the grand swing of things, but it still fills me with cortisol.

Fridging is work that makes me sacrifice a day, in order to breathe and be financially sound for the tomorrow. And I’ve leveraged myself decently and do make a good amount of cash for what the work is, but that definitely does nothing towards my liking of the job or my motivation.

“Retirement starts when you stop sacrificing today for some imaginary tomorrow. You retire by saving up enough money, becoming a monk, or by finding work that feels like play to you”. - @Naval -my favorite twitter guy. Check his page and podcast and go learn something.

Anyways, fridging is definitely me sacrificing a day in order to gain an imaginary tomorrow. Now I go back and forth on thinking of fridging as an ultimate blessing or an ultimate curse. Here’s my thoughts…

On one hand, this job has given me something consistent enough to come back to and make enough money to go dissappear and travel. I don’t know if I could’ve gone on any of my trips without it. Or pursued my current pursuits as hard without it.

On the other hand… If I didn’t have this safety net, would that have lit some fire under my ass to go figure something else out. But what would that something else have been? Would it have been something that steals more time for less reward? Or would it have forced me to go get after the dream harder?

And then and then… I get back to the fact that my “problems” are sooo stupid comparatively. I have food on my plate and a place to crash and great relationships. The problem is.. I want the Moon.

I don’t know the answer to these questions as the past is the past and I have learned either way. I also now have a vision of completely changing the way unskilled labor jobs exist in the world basically. I’ll go ahead and just put my thoughts out there on this here blog no one reads (yet?). So I want to somehow and someday create a staffing agency for young, unskilled workers.

Why? - Cause I would’ve dug it. I don’t like doing the same thing every day. I don’t like having someone give me my schedule. And I do like learning new things. A college kid that goes and works at a frozen yogurt shop or something isn’t necessarily gaining many skills. Also, this company will schedule this employee based on their needs, not the kid’s needs.

Everybody on this planet is an artist of some sort. And for some reason, it always pains me that people sacrifice so much time away from their art. Art could be ANYTHING in my opinion. Perhaps anything that gets one in their flow state. Sometimes, it may take a while for one’s art to be profitable and monetized. IF EVER! But, I think it’s a shame that art can be suppressed by work.

Work is trending more and more freelance. I want The Workers Company to aid the unskilled worker so they can see different industries, learn a variety of skills, come intro contact with new people, and.. have fun! I want it to somehow serve as an agency where if one was brought on as a “worker” they could pick and choose when and where they would like to work. Almost like a freelancer! This is something I definitely would’ve signed up for and I don’t think I would’ve been the only one.

Well… now that it’s out on the interweb it’s bound to come true right? I’d be down, but like I said, I’m not sure how and when quite yet. It is not something that I feel like I want to put the work into right now. And that’s not because I’m lazy, I just would rather work on myself (physically, spiritually, emotionally, skills) and my brand before I start to grow the workers company beyond fridging. If I could develop a massive personal platform through doing things that I enjoy, then perhaps people would want to work with me.

We’ll see. Hope you enjoyed the grand vision. I’m reading the Power of Now right now and it’s pretty great. Just emphasizing the present just like all the books and things I’ve been crushing lately. SOOO much easier said than done, but I’d be down to get enlightened sooner than later.